control...

thinking about some of the things that hold us back from living.

too many of us are living our lives trying to be in complete control of who we are and worrying about losing that control or compromising ourselves for the sake of what we think others want from us. but in actuality maybe it's something that we really want for ourselves. no one wants to be so impenetrable, and i get that we don't want to be the type of individuals that are loose cannons either. but how can we be sure that we at least fall somewhere in the middle? maybe just allowing yourself a little uncontrollable laugh (i use to hate when i couldn't control my laughter), or allowing yourself to have that  rendezvous with someone you're attracted too, or how about simply being honest about your feelings, maybe it's time to buy those shoes that you always tell yourself you cannot afford, but have been eyeballing them, for over a year and the price hasn't dropped. i'm just thinking that whatever situation you find yourself in--why not try to find the purpose behind it. 

i'm simply saying that you cannot be so tightly wound that you're missing out on life because it's not in your perspective of how things should be. so what if you've met someone and you like them more than you've ever met someone that you've just met--ever, maybe it's God's way of showing you something about yourself that you aren't aware. in life, we have to learn that all things are relative and being overly protective of our feelings and desires, can lead us to a lonely and miserable place. be uninhibited for just a few seconds and see how you feel. i'm just saying, go with the flow, or be spontaneous--it can be freeing.

now, i'm not saying go out and do something completely crazy that will land you in prison or a psychiatric ward, but maybe change your perspective do something that might make you smile when you think back on it.

think about it like this... sometimes when you lose yourself, you may actually find yourself. so, go lose control... LOL