Wednesday, September 26, 2018

Stuck, Planted, Directed

In the course of these last few months, I felt it was time to make a move regarding my career; mainly for financial reasons. I am grateful for my job, but I took a position after being laid off where I had to take a significant pay cut... I mean like SIG-NIF-I-CANT, but I could and I have... it's been a true lesson in humility, my relationship with money, and what my definition of "success" means. I have such an awesome manager, cool coworkers, and a peace of mind when I go home in the evening, not to mention the flexibility of working from home and not having to work long hours that don't align with my desire that it never truly mattered. I am grateful and appreciative. I could go on about where I'm working, how I manifested this job in the middle of Mercury Retrograde when everything in the Universe was traveling backwards and I was essentially moving backwards, but forward too, but I won't because that's not the moral of this story. The moral of that story sometimes you have to two-step backwards in order to move forward.

Back to today's message.

I recently applied to three different positions; two were private industry reputable companies, and one was a government position equivalent to the position I currently hold (they are planning to do away with the contractor position in 2019). Two of the hiring managers actually explained to me their struggle with the decision of choosing another candidate over me. Both informing me that another position will be opening in FY 2019 and I will be first in line for the position within their company/agency. One where the recruiter said to me, "if you could just hold out for another couple of months, you won't even have to interview."

But check this out.

While all of this is going on, when I was laid off, I had applied to any-and-everything that I could think of so I could survive. Survival mode to the fullest. I am reminded that on or around 2015, I was tired of the whole "survival mode" theme going on with my life and I desired something new, different, more fulfilling (I've been laid off and hired three times in four years.) Anyway, a couple of weeks ago, I received an email in response to my application submissions for a part time job. In a matter of a week, I interviewed, was offered, and began working my part time job with the Prince William County government. Although, I am part time, I am still a county employee, which offers me a foot in the door to other county positions, applying as an internal candidate. I was told in August that I would be "working a job at the end of this year that I did not like, but it would serve me well." I received the message and kept it moving.💃

Talk about being stuck, then being planted, AND THEN, being directed.

Being laid off this last time truly humbled me... I mean like HUMBLE HUMBLED!!!!😅

Why am I sharing this... because I just want to encourage someone today, no matter where you are in your life, just pray, and believe in your prayers. Have hope, knowing that hope carries the energy of having what you desire. Have patience and believe in your ability to overcome the struggles in your life that you have created. Take responsibility knowing that you played a part in whatever struggle you have to endure. Life is all about struggle and victory, so it's going to happen. Know that not soon after the struggle comes a reward, but you have to get your mind and heart in the right place to receive. I admit, I'm still somewhat bothered by the "survival mode" theme continuing, but I know that until I have learned the lesson that survival mode is mean to teach me, it will circle back! I acknowledge, one small piece of mastery level achievement of mine is "survival mode," am I emotionally mature enough to even handle what that entails? Probably not, because here I am--still in it.

However, I have new eyes, I'm not battling myself, but using its energy to transform what that means to me. Survival mode no longer means being stuck with what I do not want; I lack no good thing. Survival mode now means that I am planted and directed to the place where ultimately my desire will be manifested!!!!

In the interim, I remain open to the unlimited possibilities that await my arrival. I have two jobs, I have a potential client seeking consulting support for proposal efforts to grow his business, and I still have hope that my TV Pilot will find its way to an Executive Producer that's looking for exactly what I've created! I live a life of intention and meaning, I KNOW that whatever it meant for me will be for me. I am BEing still reverencing the Higher Power that controls my life. I surrender ALL! AND, I HAVE abundance and prosperity cooperating in my favor! I believe in my abilities to co-create!

Today, was a ANOTHER lovely reminder that I vibe high on planes that people say don’t exist!

Ase'

Love & Light

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Hiding in Pain Sight


I have taken this route too many times to name growing up as a young girl in the City, the quasi-urban
environment of Old Town Alexandria. I really wasn’t allowed to go outside the gate of our yard,
venture off the block or be anywhere that my mother or grandmother couldn’t look out the front door
and lay eyes on me or be so far out of range that when she yelled my name, I couldn’t hear her.
But, when I got out, oh’ boy, when I got out--I explored.

Pathway. Photo Cred: Me
Protect the Earth. Photo Cred: Me
Anyway, as I walked the path to work, I appreciated the breeze and the smell of leftover rain mixed in with the Earth. You can literally smell the ugliness of the Potomac as the water began
to rise, a smell that you become all too accustomed to #GrowingUpInOldTownAlexandria.
You don’t like it, you don’t dislike it… you just lived with it or knew that the rain was either coming
or going.
Walking the path from Braddock Road Metro to King Street Metro, I began to just examine and
observe my surroundings. I walked, took notice of the foliage, the signs on the streets, the trees,
just really taking in the air and enjoying the atmosphere. I remember running down this path, I
remember when this path was made of grass and dirt--a man-made path created from us locals
making shortcuts through woods to get from one part of Alexandria to the other.
So, not so. You just might have to find the way that works for you. Photo Cred: Me
Falling out of Summer. Photo Cred: Me
Shine Wild like a Mushroom. Photo Cred: Me
I love capturing photos or just reflecting on wild mushrooms or plants that grow in random
places. To me, it’s a nice reminder that you cannot stop what's Purposed.
The Pine Triplets. Photo Cred: Me
Stuck or Planted? Photo Cred: Me
It doesn’t matter if you’ve been planted or if you’re stuck. The thing is, either way, you can
continue to grow.

Elevate and Vibe High. Photo Cred: Me

Quasi-Urban. In the City. Photo Cred: Me
And Kind. Photo Cred: Me


Bloom Alone. Photo Cred: Me

Greenery. High Voltage. No Trespassing. Photo Cred: Me
The End of a Cycle. Photo Cred: Me
He hatched, he flew, he fell, and he transitioned. I honor his spirit.
As I passed by people heading into work, I held my head high, I said Good Morning! I smiled
with my eyes at some and smiled with a cheerful grin and a “Hello” at others.
I began to think about the display of gratitude I was exhibiting. I think back to a time in my life
where I walked with my head held down. My thoughts veered towards how I always walked with
my head down, looking at the ground. I missed so much of what was going on around me.
I asked myself why, why DID I always walk with my head held down? And, just like that,
walking with your head held down allowed you to hide from yourself.” Whoa! I use to hide big
time and I recognized exactly the message from Spirit on this topic. Looking down, I didn’t want
people to look at me or see me. Back then, I thought, if they looked at me directly, they would
see my eyes, and if they looked into my eyes, they would see my pain. Pain, that I was sure
that I was avoiding, and if they saw my pain, than, I would have to acknowledge within myself, it
being there to begin with…
Whoa! Wow! And Whew! I walked right smack-dab into uncovering a layer of truth.
I LOVE epiphany moments! For me, they act as precious moments in my journey that
offer me awesome awareness of myself, where I am, how far I’ve come, and essentially,
where I am going. I haven’t just grown, I am evolving into an individual who embraces who
she is and loves herself more with each layer that she uncovers!!! I learned that I still uncover
pain, and now, I stop avoiding it, but rather, I embrace it, acknowledge it, and release it by no
longer giving life to it as the only story I have to tell.  Today I made SURE I was seen--with
NO REASON to hide!!
Pink Flamingo (I say she's Red). Photo Cred: Me
As if The Most High wasn’t through with me yet… I get to work and this little lady
was sitting on my manager’s desk. Her significance? One day, I played the
Manifestation Game with the Universe. One of the items I desired to see within a
24-hour time frame was a Pink Flamingo. I saw several in that 24-hour window and
all I could do was smile. Now every time I see a Pink Flamingo, I think of how I will
never stop manifesting my desires. Today, was a lovely reminder that I vibe high on
planes that people say don’t exist!

Love and Light - Ase’