Stuck, Planted, Directed

In the course of these last few months, I felt it was time to make a move regarding my career; mainly for financial reasons. I am grateful for my job, but I took a position after being laid off where I had to take a significant pay cut... I mean like SIG-NIF-I-CANT, but I could and I have... it's been a true lesson in humility, my relationship with money, and what my definition of "success" means. I have such an awesome manager, cool coworkers, and a peace of mind when I go home in the evening, not to mention the flexibility of working from home and not having to work long hours that don't align with my desire that it never truly mattered. I am grateful and appreciative. I could go on about where I'm working, how I manifested this job in the middle of Mercury Retrograde when everything in the Universe was traveling backwards and I was essentially moving backwards, but forward too, but I won't because that's not the moral of this story. The moral of that story sometimes you have to two-step backwards in order to move forward.

Back to today's message.

I recently applied to three different positions; two were private industry reputable companies, and one was a government position equivalent to the position I currently hold (they are planning to do away with the contractor position in 2019). Two of the hiring managers actually explained to me their struggle with the decision of choosing another candidate over me. Both informing me that another position will be opening in FY 2019 and I will be first in line for the position within their company/agency. One where the recruiter said to me, "if you could just hold out for another couple of months, you won't even have to interview."

But check this out.

While all of this is going on, when I was laid off, I had applied to any-and-everything that I could think of so I could survive. Survival mode to the fullest. I am reminded that on or around 2015, I was tired of the whole "survival mode" theme going on with my life and I desired something new, different, more fulfilling (I've been laid off and hired three times in four years.) Anyway, a couple of weeks ago, I received an email in response to my application submissions for a part time job. In a matter of a week, I interviewed, was offered, and began working my part time job with the Prince William County government. Although, I am part time, I am still a county employee, which offers me a foot in the door to other county positions, applying as an internal candidate. I was told in August that I would be "working a job at the end of this year that I did not like, but it would serve me well." I received the message and kept it moving.💃

Talk about being stuck, then being planted, AND THEN, being directed.

Being laid off this last time truly humbled me... I mean like HUMBLE HUMBLED!!!!😅

Why am I sharing this... because I just want to encourage someone today, no matter where you are in your life, just pray, and believe in your prayers. Have hope, knowing that hope carries the energy of having what you desire. Have patience and believe in your ability to overcome the struggles in your life that you have created. Take responsibility knowing that you played a part in whatever struggle you have to endure. Life is all about struggle and victory, so it's going to happen. Know that not soon after the struggle comes a reward, but you have to get your mind and heart in the right place to receive. I admit, I'm still somewhat bothered by the "survival mode" theme continuing, but I know that until I have learned the lesson that survival mode is mean to teach me, it will circle back! I acknowledge, one small piece of mastery level achievement of mine is "survival mode," am I emotionally mature enough to even handle what that entails? Probably not, because here I am--still in it.

However, I have new eyes, I'm not battling myself, but using its energy to transform what that means to me. Survival mode no longer means being stuck with what I do not want; I lack no good thing. Survival mode now means that I am planted and directed to the place where ultimately my desire will be manifested!!!!

In the interim, I remain open to the unlimited possibilities that await my arrival. I have two jobs, I have a potential client seeking consulting support for proposal efforts to grow his business, and I still have hope that my TV Pilot will find its way to an Executive Producer that's looking for exactly what I've created! I live a life of intention and meaning, I KNOW that whatever it meant for me will be for me. I am BEing still reverencing the Higher Power that controls my life. I surrender ALL! AND, I HAVE abundance and prosperity cooperating in my favor! I believe in my abilities to co-create!

Today, was a ANOTHER lovely reminder that I vibe high on planes that people say don’t exist!

Ase'

Love & Light

Hiding in Pain Sight

I have taken this route too many times to name growing up as a young girl in the City, the quasi-urban
environment of Old Town Alexandria. I really wasn’t allowed to go outside the gate of our yard,
venture off the block or be anywhere that my mother or grandmother couldn’t look out the front door
and lay eyes on me or be so far out of range that when she yelled my name, I couldn’t hear her.
But, when I got out, oh’ boy, when I got out--I explored.

Pathway. Photo Cred: Me

Protect the Earth. Photo Cred: Me

Anyway, as I walked the path to work, I appreciated the breeze and the smell of leftover rain mixed in with the Earth. You can literally smell the ugliness of the Potomac as the water began
to rise, a smell that you become all too accustomed to #GrowingUpInOldTownAlexandria.
You don’t like it, you don’t dislike it… you just lived with it or knew that the rain was either coming
or going.

Walking the path from Braddock Road Metro to King Street Metro, I began to just examine and
observe my surroundings. I walked, took notice of the foliage, the signs on the streets, the trees,
just really taking in the air and enjoying the atmosphere. I remember running down this path, I
remember when this path was made of grass and dirt--a man-made path created from us locals
making shortcuts through woods to get from one part of Alexandria to the other.

So, not so. You just might have to find the way that works for you. Photo Cred: Me

Falling out of Summer. Photo Cred: Me

Shine Wild like a Mushroom. Photo Cred: Me

I love capturing photos or just reflecting on wild mushrooms or plants that grow in random
places. To me, it’s a nice reminder that you cannot stop what's Purposed.

The Pine Triplets. Photo Cred: Me

Stuck or Planted? Photo Cred: Me

It doesn’t matter if you’ve been planted or if you’re stuck. The thing is, either way, you can
continue to grow.

Elevate and Vibe High. Photo Cred: Me

Quasi-Urban. In the City. Photo Cred: Me

And Kind. Photo Cred: Me

Bloom Alone. Photo Cred: Me

Greenery. High Voltage. No Trespassing. Photo Cred: Me

The End of a Cycle. Photo Cred: Me

He hatched, he flew, he fell, and he transitioned. I honor his spirit.

As I passed by people heading into work, I held my head high, I said Good Morning! I smiled
with my eyes at some and smiled with a cheerful grin and a “Hello” at others.

I began to think about the display of gratitude I was exhibiting. I think back to a time in my life
where I walked with my head held down. My thoughts veered towards how I always walked with
my head down, looking at the ground. I missed so much of what was going on around me.
I asked myself why, why DID I always walk with my head held down? And, just like that,
“walking with your head held down allowed you to hide from yourself.” Whoa! I use to hide big
time and I recognized exactly the message from Spirit on this topic. Looking down, I didn’t want
people to look at me or see me. Back then, I thought, if they looked at me directly, they would
see my eyes, and if they looked into my eyes, they would see my pain. Pain, that I was sure
that I was avoiding, and if they saw my pain, than, I would have to acknowledge within myself, it
being there to begin with…

Whoa! Wow! And Whew! I walked right smack-dab into uncovering a layer of truth.
I LOVE epiphany moments! For me, they act as precious moments in my journey that
offer me awesome awareness of myself, where I am, how far I’ve come, and essentially,
where I am going. I haven’t just grown, I am evolving into an individual who embraces who
she is and loves herself more with each layer that she uncovers!!! I learned that I still uncover
pain, and now, I stop avoiding it, but rather, I embrace it, acknowledge it, and release it by no
longer giving life to it as the only story I have to tell.  Today I made SURE I was seen--with
NO REASON to hide!!

Pink Flamingo (I say she's Red). Photo Cred: Me

As if The Most High wasn’t through with me yet… I get to work and this little lady
was sitting on my manager’s desk. Her significance? One day, I played the
Manifestation Game with the Universe. One of the items I desired to see within a
24-hour time frame was a Pink Flamingo. I saw several in that 24-hour window and
all I could do was smile. Now every time I see a Pink Flamingo, I think of how I will
never stop manifesting my desires. Today, was a lovely reminder that I vibe high on
planes that people say don’t exist!

Love and Light - Ase’

compassion

I read an article about Compassion today. It awakened something within me.

The author wrote, “Compassion is the ability to see the deep connectedness between ourselves and others.” Her words were like Rhema to my spirit, and as I continued to read, Spirit simply spoke to me… “There you go, you align with compassion and understanding. You’ve been love all along.” This gave me something, something that I don’t have words to form, but feeling that I fully accept. But, THIS PART.... "we are called to shine a light inside ourselves and take responsibility for what we have disowned. It is at this juncture that we have the opportunity to transform from within."

The part(s) within that we have disowned... WOW... we are so quick to denounce and rebuke those parts that we do not like. Instead, we should accept and nurture, LOVE, and show compassion for those parts within us that we deem dark and hideous... so today, I am going to begin to love those parts of me that I use to ignore, hate even...

My Mantra: "I love the parts of me that struggle with setting boundaries and saying no to others because it helps me to see the forgiving, compassionate, understanding, and beautiful person that I am. I am unconditional love."

When we continue to hold space within us for the parts of us that stink, are ugly, or even an empty feeling that causes us to have dis-ease within us and often reflects outward in illness. Our emotional belief will always reflect outward. For instance, having an autoimmune disorder, such as rheumatoid arthritis (RA) is a self-attacking emotional belief. If, like me, you are healing from RA, I recommend starting with this article, The Energy Behind RA and allowing Spirit to move you into compassion and love beginning with yourself. Take a moment to reflect on this, I have no problem showing others compassion and understanding, but I am often overly critical of myself--no wonder my emotional well being is suffering.

As I embark on the love within, my intention is that God/Is/Spirit and My Ancestors will remind me each morning as I rise, to turn any form of indifference within me to compassion and love.

It is in our self reflection that we learn who we are not, and not so that we turn a blind eye and silent ear to what we find, but so that we can accept who we are, and transform what we learn into something of peace and love.

Join me by doing the following:

1. Acknowledge what you do not like. 
2. Accept that even though you do not like this part of you, it is a part of who you are.
3. Decide that even the darkest part of who you are is capable of being loved and is worthy of compassion.
4. Show compassion for all parts of you, no matter what it looks like. 
5. Create a mantra that transforms how you think about those parts that you have given up and pushed to numbness.
6. Do not give up on yourself, but embrace everything that you learn.
7. LOVE all of who you are.

What part of you have you disowned will you embrace in love on today?

It's always, all-ways about love...

Some real raw truth. 

It’s a hard pill to swallow when you learn that you didn't love yourself.

I went around placing the value and life of others over my own until one day I learned this was a conditional belief bestowed upon me, "to receive love, you have to freely give it away." BUT, then, what happens when the love you give to others, the value you place on them actually returns to you void of anything that resembles love. All the love, all you have given in the name of love and selflessness has abandoned you, given up on you, shut you out and shut you down. The exact Self-LESS-ness was exactly what I was giving out and therefore what was returning to me--there was no void. The Universe was responding!

During a coaching session, I was given what I thought was a simple task, "write a love letter to yourself." I thought, "this will be easy," I pulled out my journal, got my favorite pen, and sat there. Sat there and I sat THERE.

Blank.

Nothing. 

Then, I heard myself whisper back to me, “You don't love yourself."

I cried. What ended up on that paper, were tears, tears of heartache and struggle, pain and suffering, disbelief, discontent, hatred, depression, jealousy, envy, sorrow, abandonment, distrust, fear, and anger.

There was a reason, but hell, I didn’t even know it. I didn't even know love or what it was supposed be like, feel like, or look like. My ideas of love were so warped and tainted by giving it away freely that it was entangled in misalignment and disillusion and yet, “to be loved” was the one thing I wanted more than anything. Still do.

Contrary to what relatives, friends, people that really think they know me think of me... they are wrong because I didn’t know me. How can you know someone when you never take the time to get to know them?

Needless to say, when you come to an awareness about yourself, that you have been living a lie caused by an illusion of falsehood, there is more weight of disgust that enters you. You choose your surroundings, look at those around you differently, start to judge them because now you look at them as "fake" because they don't even know that you are not even being real with yourself. However, you cannot blame them because all they’ve been doing is buying into what you've been selling.

It’s all so complicated, but then not so complicated at all... I found that by giving so much of myself away to others, I had relinquished my control and they had this power over me - then when I shifted, they became angry, frustrated, and disappointed in my decisions and choices as if my living was for them. THAT was the AHA for me... I WAS living for them. So, there was this confusion "how dare I change course on them?" And"how dare they not support me in MY choices?" There is no compromise when two levels of thinking are unparalleled. In other words, I was changing, they were not and this interrupted the power seat they once sat in at my table. So I began to distance myself in order to do the work that required me to learn me, my authentic self. Those same people fell off because "you have changed," without regard to wondering, caring, or questioning "why," "what has happened," "are you okay?" Distance. Silence. Frustration.

How was I looking for love to return to me when I wasn’t living in my own truth? I have yet to write that love letter to myself. I still give of myself and love, but I have learned that it cannot be given without a price of loving me first.

I am learning to be grateful for the experiences because now I know that my ideas surrounding love have to be recreated and nurtured in health. I am a whole person, with dents, but each moment that I breathe deeply in and exhale deeply out... I am increasing the hollowness that resides there. 

I have learned that in returning back to me, I would need to forgive myself, trust myself, show myself compassion and empathy. I am happy. I am whole. I am complete. I am love. And with that knowing... my love letter to myself is yet to be unwritten.

Drama Triangle

At my therapy appointment one day I was describing to my therapist how tired I am of putting myself in the position to help people, then feeling the weight of responsibility I’ve placed on myself by coming to their aid, then blaming them for putting themselves in the position where they needed help in the first place, and ultimately, feeling regret. In describing my feelings to her, I felt very disingenuous, hypocritical, and fraudulent because how in the hell can you want to help someone then turn around and curse them for needing help. It made no sense to me and here I was sitting in the driver’s seat of the conflict. She listened so intently, and I felt like the way I was explaining myself made me appear as if I needed some serious medication or something. Yet, no judgment filled her eyes, and no condemnation or criticism left her lips. She shook her head and said, “Teshia, have you ever heard of a Drama Triangle,” of which I had not. She proceeded to explain how the triangle maps a type of destructive interaction that occurs between people in conflict.

I have provided a visual based on her drawing and explanation. Once she was finished explaining, it was as if my eyes had been opened from the inside of me and who or what I had been fighting for a very long time had been revealed. It was as if my soul blossomed to an understanding of my own self-inflicted wounds.

This triangle mapping made complete sense to me and I immediately saw my partnership in the conflict and the lead roles I’ve played. She asked me, “do you see yourself in any of these roles?” My response, “in all three, at various times and sometimes at the same time.” She shook her head in agreement. And me being true to who I am, I wanted to fix it expeditiously. I wanted out of the triangle. I asked her how do I get out and she simply said, you have to let adults be adults and fix themselves, fix their own problems, and choose healthy boundaries. What I took in, do not allow yourself to be pulled into the triangle. It was game on for me, I told myself, you will remain outside of the triangle of drama.

To me, it feels more like a circle than a triangle, because it is a continuous, vicious cycle of abuse really, but nonetheless, I choose to stand on the outside of it all.  

It’s so funny, that as I look back on most of my relationships, this has been the structure of them all. I participated and invited all the drama by playing each part succinctly and effortlessly, hence my being coined a “drama queen.” I carried it, being fully unaware of my ability to create the weight of responsibility that I was seemingly blaming others for pulling me into.

“Think if you will about a triangle. On each end are roles that we play in life. One is the persecutor, another is the victim and the last is the rescuer. If anyone in this triangle changes roles, the other two roles change as well.” (Karpman)

I honor myself today, the fact that I can now own who I was, yea I was a damn drama queen, LOL and choose and know who I am today to be different. I am being more conscious and aware of what role I played and play in the triangle at any given time, and making sure that I stay outside of triangle.

But, I wonder, do you see yourself in the triangle, and if so, what plans do you have to join me on the outside?

Credit:

Danielle Hatchell,  LCPC, http://www.daniellehatchell.com

The Drama Triangle, by Steve Karpman with Comments by Patty E. Fleener M.S.W., accessed http://www.mental-health-today.com/articles/drama.htm, April 13, 2017

On relationships

I am a constant student of life. I am ever evolving. I am called to share what I learn at the level in which it resonates with me because someone is listening and needs to know that there is someone else out there just like me, passing through--just like me. Life is a journey of experiences and in my life’s present experience, I am remembering who I am. You, (who chooses to read my blog) get to share these experiences with me as I learn and grow because a part of who I am allows me to operate in transparency through my writing. You get to be the audience that listens to my heart speak through my fingertips while I continue to find my voice.

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on relationships. Particularly the relationships I’ve experienced. I’m wondering about my own ineffectiveness at having a successful relationship with men. I wondered how or why it’s so difficult. There are many reasons, so many. I’ve heard that it's me, I’ve heard it’s them and truthfully I was at a loss as to the reality of it all. I can’t count how many times I’ve heard a man say that my strength is intimidating and I felt like, “if I hear that ONE MORE TIME,” I’m going to snap!!! But I gotta be honest, there is some truth to my strength being too much for a man who isn’t ready for a strong woman. Now, strong doesn’t mean controlling or aggressive--not challenging, it simply means, being assertive, and knowing what you want and not settling, having integrity and character (among other qualities). The reality, the strength of a woman is what should attract a male, not repel him.  

I think the inner misogynistic views of some of our brothas (meaning the secret hate they hold in their heart against women) is one reason why so many relationships fail. The subconscious is real, which is why actions almost never align to words when entertaining some men. It is my belief that our subconscious always leads the way! For instance, in my case, I will always get something in my mind that I will or will not do only to be faced with the action of doing or not doing the opposite. Go figure! To me, it’s a lesson in surrendering to my true self (that’s for another post).

But get this... Sistas, if you have internal negative feelings about self, then you cannot pass the buck onto the men who come into your life... that's the energy you summon--face it, you (we) are a part of the problem too. And… if I’m keeping it real… some of you are secretly operating under misandry. Another reason why so many relationships fail. I admit, it has been the negative feelings I believed about myself that have conjured the type of men that have either been too weak for me, which made me appear to strong for them, abandoned me as I abandon my true self in order to please them, or have broken the trust, as I have subconsciously expected them to eventually lie anyway. Don’t get me wrong, I am not all to blame as we are all fucked up and hiding behind some kind of hurt, but in my grown up self, I must take responsibility. It’s all about awareness. Awareness of self. What I’m trying to say is there was no balance. You gotta KNOW that YOU manifest (whether you believe in the power and law of manifestation or not) who and what YOU are!!!

Ever heard of the Law of Polarity? It is the reason why there is always, always, always an opposite. “Everything is dual. Everything has poles. Everything has its pair of opposites. Like and unlike are the same. Opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree.” (105 Universal Laws; Hughes) For this reason when you see something as it is, know that there is an opposite operating in the Universe. I like to think that one cannot operate without the other. The author also writes about this law, “Like the swing of the pendulum, it always returns where it began. In biblical terms it is expressed as, “Whatsoever a man sows, so shall he reap.” “Do unto others, as you would have them to you.” This principle establishes the paradox or the dual aspects of reality. “Everything that is, has its double, positive and negative, light and darkness, hot and cold, love and fear, mortality and immortality.” That’s why what you put out in the conscious and the subconscious returns back to you. They are equal yet opposite--balanced. Get it?

I am learning that we have to FIRST treat ourselves with the love, compassion, empathy, and understanding that we expect from someone else, because then, we are meeting each other in alignment and there is no need to seek that in another. Be your own soul mate. The relationship with ourselves determine the relationship you will have with someone else.

As for me, I am ending the cycle of falling in love with anything that is externally gratifying and rising up in love with everything that is internally magnetizing, mystifying, and magickal--all that is me.

Peace. Love. Light. #risingupinlove

Posted on Medium October 16, 2016

I try to be balanced in my light and dark self. So, I figure… keep the darkness inside… because being light is so much easier, but my darkness is a part of who I AM. I AM Light. But, hell, fighting the dark can be draining some time. Sometimes you need to turn off the light and sit in the dark. Duality is about embracing both sides. My shadow brings to the surface too much pain because being uncomfortably comfortable is a disease of the mind. I AM a Light Worker and denouncing one is denouncing the other. Without darkness we do bot know light. I cannot continue to resist both parts of who I AM. As I learn to embrace one, I must accept embracing the other. That is balance. Half the battle is knowing. The other half is knowing but choosing to resist what we know, which is not loving our true authentic selves. Both sides!

You cannot grow if you fear pain. You cannot enhance the frequency of self without raising. your vibration by fearing the loud noise. Turn up the volume and balance that shit and say fuck it! Move forward in the loudness of YOU and let the world know that YOU belong exactly where the fuck you are. Fuck all the shit that does not align with your higher self! Nothing is permanent!

Tonight’s SUPER full moon Mamma is illuminating releasing, relinquishing, and letting go. LET THAT SHIT GO and say FUCK IT!!! Tonight! Darkness wins!

Peace, Love, Light, and Dark!

Embrace Self

“There is gain in every loss…A blessing in each lesson… Light within the darkness… Love has no opposites.” — Daniela Nikolova

When I was going through some difficulties recently there were people who stopped calling me, who removed themselves from my circle, who silently judged my decisions. As I sat back and watched, I saw their behavior turn cold, my intuition began to boil in my gut and my heart began to speak. Spirit said, “they are upset because they feel you are allowing this to happen.” This, to me, meant that my choices and what I said yes to for me did not fit their mold. Maybe the mold they fit me in was never meant for me to fit in the first place. Maybe, in their mold I was smarter, or wiser than that. Maybe, I was going down a path they would not have taken for themselves and that is why it was not befitting. But, I question whether being on the path, and seeing the path is always as clear as it seems. It is easy to see the forest from the trees when you are standing at the entrance. Assumptions. Judgments. Opinions. Perceptions. Perspectives.

In my world, for once, I was choosing me and in my heart it was the right choice. That is all that mattered. My entire life I have spent pleasing others, being misunderstood and for a while now I have been on this journey of self-discovery. So the more I chose self, the more triumphant I felt. Finally, without guilt and shame, I was choosing me. In retrospect, what spirit said was not so much about what they felt, but what I knew in me was, “they were right,” “I was allowing it.”

Regardless of the circumstance that led me to this place of self-acceptance, had I not embraced me as I were, I would not be where I am at this moment — strong enough to desire to write this piece and strong enough to actually post it to be shared.

Eventually, I broke down, I did not take the path of least resistance, because I am full of resistance, but I learned a valuable lesson of losing myself and gaining myself at the same time. As I reflect, I now know that people will love you and care for you as long as you are pleasing to how they see you or fit you into their ideas. I now see the character of the people who shunned me…it showed me their integrity…it made it very plain to me that judgment is easy while understanding is not…it made me see that when things do not go as they believe in their truth…they will abandon you. No amount of pleasing anyone will ever save you from pain or hurt — let that shit go — choose self. It will be painful, but pain is growth. I learned this the stubborn way. I am still learning this. I trusted people and people hurt me, that was part of my lesson, and yet in truth, I hurt myself trying to please people. Each time my choice did not align with my true authentic self, things got worse. I would literally feel ill for not living my truth. I was choosing out of fear and that got me exactly what I intended for it not to — alone and rejected.

Even if people do not agree with your choices, you have to live for yourself… now that I am resetting, renewing, and reclaiming ME… those same people will not have a space in my circle…they showed me that their love is conditional on my ability to please them. As I was going through that difficulty God/dess was teaching me “you are a people pleaser,” which led me to realize my fear of rejection, it taught me that I need to create boundaries with everyone I come in contact with and even though I want to say yes and can say yes, I have to say no just to practice setting boundaries so that I do not feel guilty when saying no. It strengthens me to know that people will judge (including family, mostly family), but judgment of you should not and cannot make a difference in the decisions you make for self…good or bad. It is ultimately, all about what you take from it. Nothing is either good nor bad… it just is.

This recent lesson showed me who those people are, but more importantly it helped me remember who I am. I am grateful and appreciative to The Most High for grace and mercy. This morning I stood in the mirror, it took a minute for me to raise my head, I did not want to see tired, disappointed, or restlessness starring back, but I raised my head and faced her…I looked in her eyes and she simply spoke, “embrace where you are right now.”

I needed this release. Thanks for listening to my heart through my fingertips, while I work to find my voice.

Peace, Love, and Light!

Magical vs Supernatural

How is it that the church offers acceptance for "the supernatural," but discredits magic?  Influence is influence, or isn’t it. IDK.

How is Reiki or Acupuncture, or Crystal Healing therapy considered demonic, but the belief of the "laying on of hands" is acceptable?

How is reading a horoscope or predicting the future considered not of God, but the belief in the gift of the prophetic is acceptable?

So God created Heavens and Earth, then he speaks to separate Night from Day? If we truly, TRULY believe that, then why are we so quick to discredit things that aren't aligned with our beliefs? Why do we act as if it is blasphemous or a sign of disbelief to ask questions?

The one scripture says, “Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” -KJV  

As with most of the Bible, the scriptures are left to interpretation based on experience of the heart (emotional) and mind (intellectual), but the church has gotten rid of the heart connection and is only focused on the literal. We should also remember that unless we are reading the original ancient biblical text (Hebrew, Aramaic, or Greek), what we read today is just interpretation, so, if it was important enough for God to put it in the hearts of men to translate instruction from ancient text into modern language, then I am comfortable in providing my own translation of the translation (or interpretation). LOL - that’s for the religious folk who may read this and ask themselves, “who does she thinks she is?” But I ask myself, how can a person have a true God-experience with no affect on the heart? But, IDK.

Back to the scripture - in my opinion this scripture is stating that we must study self by working to improve in heart and mind (alignment) to understand the things of the God/Goddess completely. If you're only studying to know the words and scriptures verbatim to spew them out at the sinner next to you, then you're missing it completely.  When it’s the real-deal is all about heart connection and experience and there is no hiding behind that, because true heart transplantation doesn’t hold space for hidden things.

So, as I reflect, God/Goddess is omnipotent (all powerful), omniscient (all knowing), and omnipresent (everywhere), and we truly, TRULY believe this, then why are we so quick to try to hide behind the things that aren’t aligned with the transliteration of the Bible?  I find it amazing that the etymology of the root word “om” is mystical and yet we are quick to throw the words around referring to God, but discredit their root meanings, for example:

“om” is a mystical word meaning an utterance of assent (consent);

“omni” means all, every, the whole, of every kind.

Another question arises, if there is no Hebrew, Aramaic, or Greek etymology of a word, does that mean it was created in order to influence the reader?

Oh, and you acknowledge you, FYI, my thoughts are just that, my thoughts, I don’t write to claim to have the answers, more so, I write because I have many questions. I recognize and have learned that many of my answers aren’t coming in the transliteration of a Bible book or possibly the words have yet to be created to formulate the answer to my questions.  Peace.

Selah.

Reference: KJV, 2 Timothy 2:15